We Talk in Two Way Monologues

Shoe Rant

2009-12-09T10:45:48Z

Giuseppe Zanotti for Balmain's $1925 Zipper Trim Boots

GoJane.com $30.90

Chanel Bow-tie booties, $2200

They also come in solid silk patterns, but I can't find any non-runway pictures of those

gojane.com $22.10

I've been stalking GoJane, since everytime they put out something lke this they're sold out in 24 hours.
Fab shoes make me happy

Finals Playlist

2009-12-02T21:43:57Z

Thiisssss:

Ke$ha - Tik Tok
Britney Spears - 3
Lady Gaga - Bad Romance
Usher - Moving Mountains
Jason DeRulo - Whatcha Say
Boys like Girls ft. Taylor Swift - Two is better than one
John Mayer ft. Taylor Swift - Half of my Heart
Paradiso Girls - Patron Tequila
Lara Jansen//Kings of Leon - Use Somebody
One Republic - All the Right Moves
Cascada - Evacuate the Dance Floor
Breaking Benjamin - I will not Bow

How I feel about you.

2009-10-12T05:39:33Z

Cuando me miras asi, perdido estoy
Cuando me miras asi, contigo voy
Que puedo hacer tus ojos son, el iman de mi corazon

Cuando me miras asi, completo estoy,
Cuando me miras asi, yo se que soy
No pido mas es lo mejor, eres el angel luz de mi amor

En ti puedo ver la libertad
Tu me haces sentir que puedo volar
Y se que aqu es mi lugar
Y se que a ti yo quiero amar

2waymonologues @ 2009-09-23T17:09:00

2009-09-23T22:17:41Z

Tylenol, Ibuprofen, Vitamin C
Avocadoes, jalapenos, banana peppers, onions, tomatoes, garlic, salt = Freshly made Guacamole
Kirin Milk Tea
Fried Dumplings
Green Tea Ice Cream

I haven't really left the dorm in almost a week from the flu, but I'm happy.

Angry little girl.

2009-09-14T22:21:50Z

Rage.
Rage.
Rage.
Rage.
Rage.
Remember in 10th grade when that was all I was? the angry little girl who could only mouth insults and answers.

I've shoved it all off for a long time now, but now its boiling somewhere behind my eyes, and I'm fighting to put it down again. I don't know why I have so much inner anger. Fear? Insecurity? Probably.
Three of Seven sins: Wrath. Envy. Pride.
Sometimes people treat me with such kindness that I want to cry, and then I want to lash at them for that.
I feel like I can't push it away, because more and more I'm lashing out at people who give a shit about me, at people who I care about. What is wrong with me. I want to smash something physically, and I want to watch it shatter into a million pieces, and hopefully that will drain this cancerous rage.

For the first time in a long time

2009-07-24T16:25:07Z

Last night was a that was now, not this is now.
cigarettes under streetlamps. Sometimes we gotta go back to that to see where we fell apart between then and now, and now I've got the courage to go through now and make something of it.

Sometimes

2009-07-20T03:47:39Z

if you try really hard, you can take yourself back,
and in your mind it creates these whatif whati whatifs

I gotta trying to recreate then. because I have now. I have now, and I can still be with the then, just like the old times.
Yet I am sorry, sorry for blinding myself with superficial reasons.

2waymonologues @ 2009-06-29T14:56:00

2009-06-29T18:57:30Z

the space between you and me.
make it stop.

I finally watched the Dark Knight - can't decide whether I really like or disliked the nightmarish captivation.
Am deeply but unevenly tanned, sunburned, in splotches resembling continents on the ocean. map of the world.

you are the one who lies close to me//whispers hello, i miss you quite terribly// i fell in love, in love with you suddenly// there's no place else i could be but here in your arms.

2waymonologues @ 2009-06-25T02:05:00

2009-06-25T05:44:34Z

Thank you for being patient with me.
Thank you for so much more.

missing you

2009-06-11T05:16:20Z

so hard to hang up the phone which I hate so much.

I was so happy

2009-05-29T06:59:06Z

I was so happy a lifetime ago.

Fear You Won't Fall - Joshua Radin

2009-05-26T07:17:02Z

When I hearhearhear your voice I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I'm listening to thatthatthatsong that you must be so sick of because I played it overandoverandover again when we were together and it reminds me of you. Make Summer Fly so I can see you soon.

Fear You Won't Fall - Joshua Radin

Digging a hole and the walls are caving in
Behind me air's getting thin but I'm trying
I'm breathing in
Come find me
It hasn't felt like this before
It hasn't felt like home before you
And I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel
This way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you

I know you're scared that I'll soon be over it
That's part of it all
Part of the beauty of falling in love with you is the fear you won't fall
It hasn't felt like this before
It hasn't felt like home before you
And I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel
This way
And I miss you more than I should than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you

And I hate the phone
But I wish you'd call
Thought being alone
Was better than was better than
And I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you
Can't get my mind off of you
And I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel
This way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you

Ridiculous shoes

2009-05-21T02:00:14Z

This:

was worth it.

.

Afraid

2009-05-17T01:21:49Z

I'm actually really scared now that 3 of my classes have grades that are set in stone now.

TV on the Radio, damien rice

2009-05-12T05:39:56Z

I will be your accident if you will be my ambulance
and I will be your screech and crash if you will be my crutch and cast
and I will be your one more time if you will be my one last chance.

-TV on the Radio

I remember - Damien Rice

I remember it well
The first time that I saw
Your head around the door
'Cause mine stopped working

I remember it well
There was wet in your hair
I was stood in stare
And time stopped moving

I want you here tonight
I want you here
'Cause I can't believe what I found
I want you here tonight want you here
Nothing is taking me down, down, down...

I remember it well
Taxied out of a storm
To watch you perform
And my ships were sailing

I remember it well
I was stood in your line
And your mouth, your mouth, your mind...

I want you here tonight
I want you here
'Cause I can't believe what I found
I want you here tonight want you here
Nothing is taking me down, down, down...

Except you my love. Except you my love...

Come all ye lost
Dive into moss
And hope that my sanity covers the cost
To remove the stain of my love
In paper mache

Come all ye reborn
Blow off my horn
I'm driving real hard
This is love, this is porn
God will forgive me
But I, I whip myself with scorn, scorn

I wanna hear what you have to say about me
Hear if you're gonna live without me
I wanna hear what you want
I remember December
And I wanna hear what you have to say about me
Hear if you're gonna live without me
I wanna hear what you want
What the hell do you want?

Everything everything everything reminds me of you you you.

Apparently

2009-05-08T07:20:41Z

it takes me a while to be at ease with girls my own age. It's been a long term problem.

I'm stress body-torturing again. Frick.

Happy Two Months!

2009-05-01T05:41:16Z

holdin hands makin plans for the summer
fingertips and lips
when you brush my hair oh.
no more 'la belle et le bad boy' stories
just you and me
avocadoes and tomatoes
cake and ice cream
glowsticks late at night

Mind Body and Soul

2009-04-08T03:44:21Z

I've got to pull them all together. Got to got to stop taking time. got to stop feeling, and just do.

stop feeling to stop traffic//show-stop
stop feeling so you can't lose.

If coldness means strength, then perhaps its time to go back to the artic again.
Do I deserve this warmth? or is it slowlyconsuming me in flames? I used to be so strong, so rigid. Maybe I want to be the doll-eyed, un-stringed marionette controlled by goals; indestructibly perfect. This modern love is too real in a world where everyone is plastic. I had that dream again. Everyone was plastic. and beautiful. I want to be plastic. Again?

Part III for Andrew

2009-03-27T02:01:32Z

I think about you frequently. think think think face.

:-P

faces

embarrassed that I think about you that often

Boo I suck at talking on the phone

TV on the Radio Lyrics

sometimes I'm a little emo...in a Happy way?

PANDAS and KIDS make me smile the way you do. almost.

miss you lottts

Lucky

2009-03-17T05:22:01Z

don't even need a 4 leaf clover (-:
I feel so lucky

This actually might be good for me

2009-02-27T23:25:57Z

I think I'm on the right track this time, getting my act together, asking for help when I need it, and not trying to be invincible.

Checklist

2009-02-22T03:54:36Z

Standard Dress
Latin Costume
Gloves
Shorts
Team Jacket
Makeup
Hair Accessories
Hair Gel
Hair Spray

Earrings
Necklace
Bracelet
extra hair ties

Fake eyelashes
eyelash glue
body glitter

18.440 Pset
18.310C pset

Practice skirt and shirt just in case
Latin Practice Dress
safety pins

Why are bunnies so fcking cute?

2009-02-20T16:37:49Z

Someone down the hall got a black bunny of craigslist and whenever I'm feeling depressed I just ask to hold Pirhana, [yes, they named him that], and I feel better.

Why do you have to be so fcking cute?

BU Ballroom is this weekend and I'm wearing the skimpiest thing I'll ever put on in public in my life. Say helllooo to rhinestones. And I'll be bleeding glitter out of my eyes, but its ok, because at the end of the day, I get to go back and see something so fcking cute I can't really describe in english how FREAKIN CUTE it is.

Pretty Baby

2009-02-15T09:53:44Z

Pretty baby don't you leave me
I have been saving smiles for you
pretty baby why can't you see
you're the one that I belong to
I'll be the embrace that keeps you warm
for you're the sun that breaks the storm
I'll be alright and I'll sleep sound
as long as you keep comin' around

I love where I am in life.

smashbox

2009-02-13T21:34:43Z

I smashed a Pyrex glass dish in lab today with my fist

no really. I was removing the bunsen burner from the gas and brought my fist straight down into the pyrex glass dish filled with ethanol
mmmm the smell of ethanol.

and the first thing that came to mind after the initial OMG IM A KLUTZ was 'i'm going to title this blog entry smashbox'. Right.
Fan got me a ticket to the Yo-Yo Ma concert in March. They're worth $120. He found them for free. Damn.